Speak Your Heart Out… Choose Your Well-Being.

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“Speak your heart out.”

Easier said than done. Oftentimes, you want to cry your heart out but no words seem to best explain it. You tend to explain everything to others for them to understand why you’re acting such but you find it too hard to do at the same time. Until you get tired. You get tired of shouting inside about what’s happening to you or about how you feel but nobody seems to listen or care at least. No one bothers to know you deeply. To understand every bit of you. They only care on how you react to them and not as to why you do so. It aches, I know. But that is life. As they say, you can’t please everybody. Because if you do, you will drain yourself and you will start to lose all of you. Emptiness will start filling your mind and your soul and that will be the start of you feeling unworthy. You will start blaming yourself for actions and results you didn’t cause in the first place. It will tear you into pieces, maybe not on the outside, but on the inside is for sure.

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“So, please STOP.”

It won’t do you any better. You have to realize that dwelling on those kinds of emotions is not worth every ounce of your being. You gotta do some self love. Always remember, you don’t deserve to be stuck in that kind of situations nor be around those people who let you feel or act that way. You have to loosen your grip and learn to let go even if you cherish them so much. Even if they say that they care about you. You have to listen to their actions and not on what they say they are. After all, the world will continue to revolve even without them. Maybe being isolated from the norm is all you need. Because there, you will start to understand your heart’s cry. All this time, what it wanted was to be heard. To be prioritized.

“CHOOSE YOUR WELL-BEING.”

So the next time you feel that you have to explain yourself, please don’t try hard. If people won’t understand you, let them be. Never consider other’s feelings too much. You have to choose when it is time to put yourself first before anyone else. You are responsible for your own happiness. And I know that all of these can’t be done in a blink of an eye. I know that it needs time. Don’t feel pressured. You can do it little by little. PRAY. It’s the only way you can get through whatever life throws at you. You will never lose in prayer. NEVER.

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Lastly, I hope after all these things, you will be able to see that life is not about being accepted and loved by many all the time. Not everyone will see you as how you wanted to be seen. You will never be enough to others. But you are all enough to Him. He will see you beyond all your flaws. In Him, you will not need to worry about anything. Never cease to believe in His goodness and faithfulness and everything will fall into place. Always keep the faith!

 

The Ten Things Every Woman Must Have Realized at 25

3. God is an amazing God. You learned that He has been guiding you all along and that your wishes and dreams have all been in a way or another, granted – in the way you wanted it to be and sometimes, in a way better than you have imagined. You learned to surrender everything to Him – your disappointments, sorrows, regrets, guilt, dreams and successes. You learned that with Him in your heart, everything will be okay.

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You are at the point in your life where and when you feel that you are 100% an adult. You earn your own money, you support your family, you pay your bills (and have consistently done it on time), you clean your own apartment, you buy your own groceries, you create life-changing thoughts and decisions in your shower (or in the loo, your choice), you do your laundry, you (try to) manage your schedule (juggling work, family, love and recreation) and you are 25.

And then there are moments in being in this quarter of a century that you understand you are at least a little wiser than yesterday and so much more than 365 days ago. You’ve learned that:

1. Family is everything. This is something you’ve heard countless times from your parents and other grownups when you were just a few feet old but you’ve really learned its…

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A Night To Remember ❤️

 

 

April 6, 2016, Wednesday at Chinatown’s Bestfood Restaurant, Banawe, QC.

It was a great night. I didn’t expect that we will all enjoy it that way. I think it was the first time that the Bautista clan had a get together (ALMOST complete! We missed you, Tito Andy). I didn’t know what’s going to happen that night…

Okay, so here is how it all started. Joanne, my cousin, was the one who initiated the plan. (And for that, I am thankful and super happy. Because of that, I  am writing this blog, too. 🙂 ) There was no definite plan plotted. Basta we just agreed on the date, on the contribution, and that’s it!

Fast forward, we arrived at the restaurant at around 8:00pm. I met with my two siblings in SM San Lazaro prior to that. Some of my cousins were there na because they were the ones who fixed the venue. When we got there, everything is ready. We just have to wait for the celebrant. 😉

while waiting, picture picture muna 😊

 

complete ang girl power!

 

kulang lang ng isa. sayang. (insert Keneth)

It was past 9:00pm when finally the celebrant along with the ‘kasabwats’ arrived the venue.


TADAAA! Her reaction says it all. 😍 after that video, we all greeted her and random kulitans happened. 😂

Then we had our dinner, kwentuhans, and all.

After dinner, we had games! 😊


Ehem, for the winning team. 😂

After several games, of course, we got hungry, so we started eating the cupcakes and the cake! 🎂🍰

Lastly, who will miss a group photo? Nah!

The night ended with so much happiness and love. I never thought it would be that fun. We all had a great night, indeed!

Thank you, Lord, for the gift of family. Truly, we are blessed having them in our lives. We couldn’t imagine our lives without them. They are the living testimony of your greatness and love to us. They are our strength during our downtimes. They are our no.1 support group. Thank you for the overflowing blessings you’ve showered my family. We are forever grateful. Amen.

The love of a family is life’s greatest blessing.

 

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To be like You is what I desire
I’ll give all I have just to know Your ways
With all of my heart
I want to love You more

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You were content to let me shine, that’s your way.
You always walked a step behind.

I can fly higher than an eagle,
’cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

Thank you, thank you,
thank God for you, the wind beneath my wings.

I feel grateful whenever I hear this song. Maybe because I have these people whom I can refer to as the “wind beneath my wings”. I couldn’t imagine my life without them. They are the same people who stay despite all my imperfections. Truly, I am blessed.

I will never cease to thank the Lord for sending these people in my life. They make my life extra special.

“Friends love through all kinds of weather, and families stick together in all kinds of trouble.” -Proverbs 17:17

 

Today’s Prayer

Lord, empty me of me so I can be filled with You.

Prayer

Limited Love

How many times did  I fail to show love? Love for family. Love for friends. Love for enemies. Even love for strangers.

Oftentimes, I tend to take things for granted. Like the relationship I have with family and friends. I act like it’s their duty to be with me or to stay with me all the time. I live my life the way I know. To tell you, I might be one of the most hard-headed persons you’ll ever meet. I only accept the love I think I deserve. And so, I only give back the love I think they deserve, too. It is so hard to be close to me. To be with me. Seldom, I listen to others. Seldom, I accept opinions or criticisms against me. Seldom, I let arguments stop without me winning it. You know, it’s so hard to be me. You will not understand but I don’t want to be me, too, at times. I hate myself for being ungrateful of what I have. I hate myself for being too proud sometimes. I hate myself for being envious of the things or relationships that I don’t have or feel. I hate myself for being a badass.

I just hope that someday I’ll be better than this. God willing, I will overcome the struggles of life. I can be more lovable than I am now. I will learn how to love unconditionally, without hesitations. I will see life beyond imperfections. Someday.

Today’s Prayer: Father, please teach me how to love without reservations. Teach me how to love myself so I can extend it to others. Help me to become more humble in every aspect of my life. Teach me to appreciate all the things that come my way. Father, I am so lonely. I feel so distant from You because of the limitations I set for myself. I am so sorry for that. Please help me find myself and happiness in You. Please let me feel your love through the people you sent to surround me. Help me to become better, O Lord. Guide and bless me, please. Use me as an instrument to bless others, too. Amen.

 

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What if your blessings come through raindrops
What if your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know you’re near

What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

Why Am I Here?

life-has-a-purposeLately, I have been asking myself, why am I here? This question particularly refers to one of the organizations I belong to. For the past few weeks, I felt tired or I felt being obliged of doing things because I have to and not because I want to. I have been praying to God to show me my purpose. What do I get from spending most of my time in this community? How does this help my personal life? Do I really find myself happy doing all the activities in here?

The answer to my question did not come right away. Day by day, God had shown and is still showing me why I am here. Let me enumerate my realizations so far:

1. I am here because God brought me here. No more questions.

2. Instead of spending my spare time in doing nonsense things, I chose to be here to serve God. To serve God through serving others (that’s a fact).

3. God put me here to have more friends. To be inspired by others and to inspire as well.

4. God is continuously working on me. He is working on my imperfections.

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I may not have all the answers yet. But I know, in time, I will fully understand my purpose. For now, I have to work on my faith. God is using me for His glory. I believe that I am here because God wanted me to and He has better plans for me.

Lastly, I would like to share with you this song that relates to my realization.

Hello world!

Hoooray! Finally, I am into this thing of writing online, Blogging! Basically, I want to share with you all the wonderful and fun memories that I will be creating with the best people in my life at the best places in the world! 🙂 I DARE you to DREAM and ESCAPE the world for happiness!